How will I reach Enlightenment?

Healing basking in your love suddenly stopped, you were now sunshine to another.

Much pain, scars remain, craving intensifies, harsh words are exchanged.

How will reach Enlightenment? I vent, I meditate, I contemplate my own thoughts, I hack my own brain.

No pain, scars fade, craving diminishes, and this demeaning suffering is gone, in theory.

But in practice it's much rougher, in my hero's journey, I juggle in my bed when I'm depressed.

Much pain, scars fade craving diminishes, harsh words are heard.